EFFECTS & TIME & BEING REMOTE ..... STUDY THE EFFECTS = EVIDENCE ON GOD

If a shadow exists - it is not "real" but an effect of something that does exist.  It, in and of itself, then seemingly causes another effect..... namely it can protect, hide, and cool one down.  But, it still is not what is the "thing" which exists.  The shadow is two dimensional at best and can only exist simultaneously with the thing which caused it to manifest.

Should something happen to the "thing," the shadow would disappear.

Consider this as evidence each time God is mentioned or not mentioned.  The above words (as idea) ..... come right out of scripture.

Framing God in context of "thing" or "source" and in context of existence or not, is only useful when dealing with "unexplainable" or profound considerations too awesome for human or animal minds.  NO ONE has yet to know or discover all the secrets of the universe of which we find our existence.

One should not confound effects - with "reality".......  In seeking evidence of God, spirituality, love,  - the very essence of all there is.... it may be that "effects" ARE the evidence.

What is, however, most peculiar - is that once "science" deems something observable, it claims that as evidence - capable of measurement & sensory data at human levels.

The peculiarity goes further as all of man, earth, creation - the universe, are deeply the embedded effects of God.  All we study, all we are, all we think we know - are effects of God & NOT God!  Who can know the mind of God?  Only God.

Studying shadows can, however, give us some understanding of the "original."  One can sometimes determine structure, or shape.  But, then the shadow is illusive through another effect (time) .......  the shadow becomes stretched, distorted, and worse, at various "times" (i.e., high noon) - the shadow does not appear to exist at all.  Time - a bizarre effect on its own - wreaks havoc on everything.  Time is sequential motion - a revolution of interacting pieces of the universe.

But, it does not exist in God.  The path to God is convoluted by design.  There is no Occam's Razor in God.  And, to assume the simplest explanation suits the "evidence" - assumes the simplest mind.  By discluding God as the cause of all that exists, one forces extreme explanations that God is "merely" a delusional psychological (simulation) virtuality - at best, an anomaly or exception.

In turn, these assumptions wrongly conclude that the "real" study of shadow, light, time, & atom-splitting IS reality and "evidence" that man exists & God does not.

Yet man, like a shadow, keeps disappearing.  Those who nearly die often report back that they were in a strange universe & the persistence that life continues.

Is the effect of time once again wreaking havoc?  Is it only that our life appears to end (death) - but in reality, it is still very much there..... just as the shadow appears to not exist at high noon.

Regardless, of either "effect," the original - God - who causes all, is not seen & IS hidden in His own effects that He created.

Belief vs. experience has very blurred lines.  If God, is - in fact - IMPOSSIBLE to know.... one therefore does not claim Him non-existent through simplicity.  That illogic is obvious.  To know God - would also be by design..... seeking God is the beginning to know - and wondering is the beginning to seek.

When you see a shadow - Light & Dark are in contention...... for weirdly Shadow can only exist because there is Light!  It is the light source which one seeks.  The Light is God.

For those who are content, happy, filled.... with their own wonderment of the universe.... & trusting their own sense - living, perceiving, & feeling effects through natural phenomena occurring in life...... - then seeking God may seem silly.

However, simply by the limiting definition or no definition - God IS God - however man defines God - or not.

The effects are here to examine as the evidence to lead anyone to God.  An effect of time is useful in giving us opportunity to learn.  Only over time can anything change.

Being a shadow effect of God allows us to understand separation from God.  Though one may continue to believe existence is NOT contingent in God - no one can refute that shadow exists only as an effect of something else.

All the Heavens & Earth declare God!  Let the evidence speak.  Study the EFFECTS.

AURA

"GREATER LOVE HAS NO ONE THAN THIS,

THAN TO LAY DOWN ONE'S LIFE FOR HIS FRIENDS."

John 15:13

Last night was the end of an incredible week with all its ups and downs and all that life is and is not.  The promises of Peace in the midst of turmoil is real.... just as Jesus said.... exactly as He promised.  The world is filled with its troubles of the day, its wins and losses - yet Jesus did overcome the World and all that is in it.  I was pleased to be "prepared" for some of the heartache.  I was more than elated over some of the beautiful blessings.  And, I remain in awe of that Peace in Him!  More beautiful than I could ever describe, draw, create, speak about.....

I put my head to rest late.... and just wanted to try to prepare for the challenges which I knew were there and coming.  Trying hard to not be in the Earth's defeat - knowing that all these tests pass through everyone.... to see what we are made of, what we can reveal of ourselves.  I went through this somewhat numb, somewhat on automatic.  At one point, I felt the break for my art would be sweet.  I started out with a whole other idea - but then when I realized where I was going, I felt it.  I was trying to capture my feelings - all of them.  Both the love, the excitement, the tears, the courage, the blessings, the high contrasts - and still beyond that- the Spirit of our Lord that sustains me no matter what "form" I am.  God still sees me in love and abiding in Him forever - no matter that I may not feel the distinct solidity of understanding perfectly what goes on in this world I live with in time.  I am not bogus - I am not the world's assessment of me.  I belong to Him, only.

Love His Sonshine

For Sure

Several things will be true in each day:  the earth, the heavens, the sun, the moon, the seasons..... life / health / death / and everything in between:  joy, sadness, friends, enemies, love, encouragement, hate, despair.... 

Yes, each day we are always promised those miraculous things of God mingled with the troubles of the world - of which Jesus said - "But, I have overcome the world!" .... AND - the single most incredible promise I experience DAILY - -- -- PEACE.  "PEACE, I leave you ..... " said Jesus!  Without it - what would I be - what would I have?

The daily news of despair, vengence, revenge, hate, chaos, etc... each day filled with jealousy from those who do not even know me - or pretend to but spend their lives justifying how "wrong" I am - how "wrong" my life....  Sound familiar?  

I am sure everyone has these "friends" - knows these people.   Sometimes - maybe most times, I do believe people do not know any better - and/or say the wrong thing out of just busy lives or carelessness - and not in anyway a distinct reason to attack.  Or perhaps attacking with the idea of defending love ..... the love of protecting their family & themselves - and righteously so as only they could understand it.  But, though these "wrongs" exist in every waking minute and hour - yet does the Lord SHINE! with the Light & Love I experience each second or even without time.  I am held in the arms of my husband, my provider, my Love, my Lord, MY GOD!  Thankfully.

I hope to always notice how our Lord allows such "testing" - each second, each minute, each time.  And, how endearing and thankful am I that God gives me "time" to discern and not falter myself to judge with rancor a circumstance or person of vengence.

QUEST

I cannot deny my earlier leanings when at a very young age I began to question ideas about God.  Certainly I did not understand Jesus.  It was involving stories I could not relate - as I finally realized that Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny along with fairies and brownies were not real.  At some point in pain, I called out to God - and nothing happened.  Therefore it seemed logical for me to address anything else.  One - science had some answers.  Two - Jesus was probably a myth like any other and most religions. Three - God was an attempt to explain things we just did not understand.  I tried to respect those who might have their belief - as long as they didn't push it on me.

To now be on the other side - from a complete gift of revelation from God in Jesus Christ, I have such respected compassion for those who, like the former me, question everything - even to finding "reassurance" as a skeptic since "science doubts itself - and that is something I can trust."  This is an actual quote from a man I spoke with on why he "gave up his faith" in Jesus Christ.  He admitted that the church involvement, etc. - did feel good to him, but his reason for walking away was that he did not feel there existed any real "answered prayer".  Therefore, God did not hear him, or that God does not exist, and/or he was "only deluding himself," etc.  Along the way he also enjoys more freedom in doing whatever he feels like sexually, and otherwise - without guilt or feeling restricted.  I wanted to correctly ascertain his logic in how he concluded everything - hence the above statement.  When I pressed him further, however - for evidence for God or not, he said he could not answer either way and did not want to bother with it.  But, the final conclusion, he felt forced to say - "Yes, I would really like to know - if the evidence is there.  But, I have to just live my life in some honesty the best way I can - and enjoy myself."  Enjoyment of life without guilt or restriction seems to be the main draw for most of those who turn away or never bother thinking about anything spiritual.  The value is on the present moment rather than on an eternal truth that one could continually seek in their heart and mind.

I am dismayed on this trend for several reasons.  One - Since my revelation in Jesus Christ came in my late teens,  I can now only imagine being in doubt or unbelief.  And, I would hope I would have sought God and answers no matter when.  But, why is it that as people age, they do not consider more wisely their mortality?  In fact, it often seems that most feel their ideas of things become more entrenched and justified as one ages.  I do not believe this is logical.  It would only make sense that with age comes wisdom - and to correct oneself if in error or at least to very thoughtfully consider all things.  Two - I certainly never have felt restricted by Jesus Christ.  If anything, I came to realize that in this life Jesus clearly gave the freedom to do anything we want - and in grace! Jesus totally taught there is no line to cross!  To that, however, one realizes in Christ the wisdom as the experience of love and understanding is written in one's heart.  Thus, like life, we learn or rather KNOW that though "we are free to do all things - not all things are good for us."  And further logic as Paul stated, "we are accused of saying let us sin all the more so grace will abound!"  I think that speaks for itself.  Obviously, grace has to cover everything - every thought, every act, every possible scenario.... of which there are so many - it would be a mess and troubling to consider them all.  Each of us "feels" things which are good or bad - for God teaches all men.  This is just common sense to know - not get all up in it or off on tangents about every little moral jot or not.  Another factor to consider is that one "logically" understands what is right in motivation from all encompassing love - this I experience in God.  It is a little like staying faithful to a marriage partner because it is expected, or staying faithful in all because one is so in love that a stray thought would never be considered. Three - I am not sure those who "leave the faith" ever felt more than the phenomenon of group highs - and/or sometimes a taste of the actual manifestation of God's Holy Spirit.  I am deeply troubled by the mockery that some "educators" resort to in undermining someone's beliefs.  I know that I received a waking revelation from God in Jesus Christ while considering and seeking seriously the depth and reality of God's salvation in grace through Jesus Christ. Yahweh - mostly means God Saves.  (In English God is often Jehovah/Yahweh - & Jesus is Joshua/Yeshua - but getting off on names too much is another obstacle for argument with most.  God's real name & Jesus Christ's name - is actually a complete secret.  Your own real name is a secret, also - known only to God at present! This is relevant in that language is only in time.... God communicates without time and in words that are not a spoken language as we would know it.)  But,  it is all GOD - the only God - who created us, designed all, and especially provides the saving grace to abide in Him without separation - the only "real" sin.   I considered all this and prayed completely alone and in the privacy of my own space accepting that I did not have the answers, was separated from God - and in need of grace, saving and love through God who provided all in bringing us back to Him with understanding through Jesus Christ - God in flesh.  I am well aware of the influence one can feel by group/world pressure - to believe one way or another or not.


Thus, this is all very simple in that it is real or it is not.  Get off the fence and get serious about the real evidence or not.  Meaning that - if it is not real, nothing would ever matter  - so what.  Yet, that leaves only one way to look at it - IT IS REAL.  Because, as it is real - EVERYTHING MATTERS!  Wisdom would address that for any who want to know.  I am sympathetic as I experienced this complete vision and revelation in one moment - if that.  God completely changed my mind in me "in the twinkling of an eye."  But, my former self remembers and I would very much love to assist someone like me to take another look at our eternal Lord - and understand redemption and all that is happening.  Peace in understanding is a beautiful love and trust in something so beyond ourselves - it is transcending.  To seriously consider then the master plan which God intended in this very transient life would be the most important thought one could ever think - Jesus Christ is a living salvation for all that man has done in separation from God.  Our lives are a mere dream, a mere virtual test - to reveal who we are, what we are made of, what we would be or could be.  Yes, it sure "feels" real! And, painfully so.  But, eternity is the reality - and that is the truth.  Understanding how to live it well begins with crossing that first bridge to God - the complete remedy of death - Jesus Christ - Yahweh, God Saves!    

  

Who is Responsible?

The news coverage of the Tampa Mom who shot her teenaged children - (age 13 and 16) for "talking back" to her - rings a familiar pattern which is repeated - once is too often.  Also, in January 2011, a young Dad went off in Meridian (Boise), Idaho - where he stabbed his Mom to death, chained and tortured his wife, and endangered his baby.  A couple of years ago (2007) - on Christmas Eve, a young daughter with her boyfriend shot and killed her parents, her brother and his wife with their two young children in Carnation (Seattle) Washington.   First, society wants to know who did this? - who is responsible? - then why?  Of all these four people who confessed to committing these crimes of shock - not one of them had any criminal record whatsoever.  In fact, the Idaho young man had actually been a deputy police officer.  The Tampa Mom was wealthy, degreed, and had been a military officer.  The daughter with her boyfriend had been in business with the brother at one point.  They were living in a trailer on the same property as the parents.  "Typical" family issues were present in each scenario.  So, what caused these people to flip - but with a warped planning mind over time - not a quick crime of instant passion.

There are many examples of this horror all over the world and over history.  Some remain completely unsolved.  Others, like the above three, society gets to go over the facts and ponder the ramifications.  I noticed the above three incidents because each city happens to be where my siblings and I are - Boise, Seattle, Tampa.   In Orlando, are other siblings, too - and there are too numerous tales of horror in the news, as well - take your pick from child murder, massacres, etc... from Moms, Dads, Brothers, Sisters - all inclusive like a Disney Horror World in Orlando.   In another Florida city last Thanksgiving, an estranged brother sweetly included by a distant cousin,  waited for after the Thanksgiving meal to massacre his sisters and family - and said that he had been methodically planning to do so for 20 years.  So, one wonders - could any of this happen to our Family?  And, of course we quickly think, believe, pray, and feel - no way, of course not - never.  But, the lingering question of looking at some of the people in the news above - still should pause us all to make sure this could never happen in our families.

And, so - if these were well-planned events and not passion moments - what caused the constant drip-drip-drip..... to finally inch into anyone's brain and start warped thinking.  And, if it is just that - a drip drip drip --- of small, typical, insignificant oversights, that lead to big omissions, mix in a little alcohol, anti-depressants, medical ill-health - and finally from a little neurotic behavior comes a huge neurosis and then turns into psychosis - break from society's "norm".   Personally, I can make at least one over-generalization in most of the above horror scenarios:  I believe there was a root cause of dis-respect which was "felt" by the above samples of people - whether or not they were actually disrespected, still hardly should cause such violent responses.  But, it is something historically that becomes a sore point for many - Hitler, too - lack of respect and/or lack of identity - can begin the warped cycle mix.   It is at this point I must look at my Love, my Lord - Jesus Christ..... who's challenge was not in acting out (behaviour) - but in actual PRIVATE thought! Amazing.  He set the standard that you have committed these same acts - all of us - if we had so much as "thought" of it.  On this, however, I do not believe that a mind-popping stray idea is a thought - I believe the standard is to actually entertain the thought.  In other words, keeping the thought ever-present, or in the background as a real possibility - even a sick, warped "hope" - to wish ill of someone else.  God reads our hearts, knows our intents - and definitely records each and every little thought whispered in our soul!

And, I ponder - why is Christ's standard so high?  Who can really control one's thoughts perfectly.  But, if our evil world and the horrible actions above actually originated with thought - and well-planned thought - then I can understand how God has such concern - for as He said in Genesis and throughout the Bible - all of man's heart is evil - every thought to continually do evil.  This broke God's heart - and He said He was sorry he made man!

It is now being scientifically discovered - and measured - that thought truly has vibration and can manifest.  If this is truly the case - thoughts, like ripples of water waves, have to end up somewhere.  Perhaps, others pick up on the evil vibration thoughts of the world - and decide something on them.  That is bad enough - but to be the originator of the thought and to put it out there - would be worse, I would imagine.  This is where we all can take some responsibility for the drip-drip-drip dysfunction that sometimes contributes to the above scenarios.  Keeping Christ's commandments - of loving kindness to others - even our enemies and to ask God to BLESS - not curse someone who is evil or our enemy....... this is quite a revelation and standard.  Truly the love thoughts and the beauty of our Lord also must have to go somewhere and manifest and others "pick up" on it, as well.  In actuality, we are all sharing in the responsibility of the crucifiction of Christ - not one of us is without flaw or fault.  As our Lord forgives us in this - in order to start anew - we can take on His nature in that we can choose to NOT want evil thought and doing.  This is the real test and we will always have a new view in which to judge ourselves only - not others.

Taking responsibility to control one's thoughts is a beautiful beginning that one can begin anew each time second!  When people act out as above, truly we can all see how we are all sharing in the hurts, torments, warpdom, --- and almost destined to keep the horror pattern "alive" and vibrating still....   This is the nature of evil.  To be strong enough to stop that kind of "wave action" - in Christ is divine - beyond good.  May we all share in this as our legacy in kind!

SPIRIT OF GOD !

"...   But we know that when He is revealed,

We shall be like Him,

For we shall see Him as He is."

1John 3:2



Under the Shadow of Your Wings

Keep me as the Apple of Your eye;

Hide me under the Shadow of Your wings!

Psalm 17:8

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Garde-moi comme la pomme de l'œil;

Couvre-moi sous l'ombre de tes ailes!

Psaume 17:8

TO HIM WHO MADE GREAT LIGHTS!

To Him

Who made Great Lights

His Mercy endures

Forever ! 

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Psalm 136:7

 Celui qui a fait les grands luminaires, Car sa mis? ricorde dure? toujours!

Psaume 136:7

REJOICING IN HOPE !!!

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"Let Love be without hypocrisy.

Abhor what is evil.

Cling to what is good.

Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly Love,

In Honor giving preference to one another;

Not lagging in diligence, fervent, in spirit, serving the Lord;

REJOICING IN HOPE !!!"

Romans 12:9-12

THINGS NOT SEEN

"If I have told you Earthly things and you do not believe, how will you believe if I tell you Heavenly things?"

{John 3:12}

Art is an amazing thing to try and express ideals/thoughts on two-dimensional paper/canvas.  The beauty of a rose seems to always be lacking when represented on paper - even if creatively expressed with symbolic language art - as words/prose or poetry.  Though words do communicate thought somewhat accurately, they can never reveal the essence of a rose nor other ideals - as love.

Yet, many keep trying to create from an innate desire to express or communicate the soul. - to be a part.  The ideals of love, truth, beauty, and loyalty - are things which are intangible. To have them manifest as physical or flesh, would reduce them to something flawed. Things seen are capable of being judged as evidence.  The unseen things must remain unseen in order to be perfect.

I love that God sees us as His children - creatively expressing in the same way we see our own children and love their heartfelt intent - without adult judgement of their creative works.  Ideals are huge forces of perfect patterns which mirror the mind of God in Heaven.  We reflect God in creative expression as His works of art.  May we always regard each letter, each word in the love of God who gave us the symbolic language art to express and communicate our deepest feelings in thought - even in the letters of love from scripture.  God sees the intent behind the manifestation.

"....  We do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen.  For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal."

{2Cor.4:18}

SWEETNESS & LIGHT

On thoughts or off thoughts run through our being enveloping around us the essence of all we know in our element.  Sweetness and light are ancient ideals born from a word - from the word first spoken ...... truly the first thought manifest in Him the divine.

From over 5,000 years old, Sanskrit first recorded sweetness.  It was the surrounding spirit tightly enveloping a person...binding them, securing them as swaddling divine clothes from birth.  A gift of God - His sweetness and light..... our Lord Jesus Christ.

This is Love.

Sonshine

Forgiveness, Time, & Spirit

Forgiveness, Time, & Spirit

Spirit is here and now.  It does not disappear or melt into age.  Spirit is forever.  It always  was, it shall always be.

“For though I am absent in the flesh, yet I am with you in spirit, rejoicing to see your good order and the steadfastness of your faith in Christ.” (Col.2:5)

It is so sad that those in Christ are often the very ones to approach our Lord and the Body of Christ in legalism.  The law may be perfect, but even Jesus found it lacked the Spirit that Jesus fulfilled.  It is truly a living law written on our hearts which brought the perfect legal law to perfection - only by the will of God in Jesus Christ.

Yet, there are many who quench the Spirit  because they are so afraid of mediums, divination, zodiacs,  necromancy, etc. from legalistic law in Leviticus and throughout mostly the old Testament, but also in the new.   The warnings are dire, and I believe righteously so.  I think that none of us living know enough about any of this to ever consider it - and that remains forever as our Lord advised ..... AVOID THESE THINGS ALWAYS!  The warning is not so much that you will be somehow deprived of some so-called power or something you think could happen - (but in a horrible way).... the warning is from a loving Father who cares with His life!  Though in Christ we are free to do all things..... truly not all things are good for us - and truly these things mentioned above are the worst for any. Don't go there - and if somehow in it - walk away from it. (Flee!)  But, please know that the true SPIRIT OF OUR LORD IS TRUTH & IN LOVE.  I will never quench the beautiful outpouring of Love in Our Lord Jesus Christ! Nor will I ever entertain those things which are not of Him nor would I ever need!

As Interactions Go

This week began another new phase of interactions, interviews, meetings, editing, recording, and archiving - all the while trying not to get sick from one source or another.  Along the way are plenty of exceptions to any rule.  (I think there are no rules .... only exceptions!)  I have to "sleep on it" no matter what.  Choices that are made become problematic, when one does not listen to our Lord's voice within.  Sometimes, things come into being so fast, there is no time but to react with God-given nerve impulses ..... on auto-pilot.  No chance to "sleep on it".... but when finally sleep does come.... waking up with a start! Realizing - ---so that was what it was all about.  Sometimes, not believing it to be true.  Just the squeamish feeling of knowing it is not a good thing.... in fact beyond sad ..... actually evil.  And we catch the dust from others kicking it..... traveling like a virus..... exposed we are.  No wonder Jesus said that He well knew what was in man ..... and that (the Evil One) ".... has nothing in Me."  Evil thought comes from within.  But, where does that originate from as it just "pops" in our minds? ..... I can certainly guess. In fact, where does ANY THOUGHT originate from? In or out... it is still awful to have it show up in any way - and there we all go in the mix of two spheres, two worlds or more interacting like a dance.  Yet, the worst is when any of us "entertain" the thought..... being forced or not - it really has a way to manifest.  To be completely out of this world is not really possible, but thank God there is security in our Lord ..... to deliver us from evil.... even if it is just errors and omissions. ..... on Earth as it is in Heaven! And, that "all things work for good.... " truly, I've seen THIS manifest!! Praise God!  My prayer  and deepest desire - I hope to never be the bitter seed of contagion spreading the Earth and beyond with my demise... should that happen through a warped or wrong view of myself or through others seeing me blindly without comprehension .... may God preserve me, always... in  Him.

Miraculous Day Timing

Today, I am wearing an outfit from 41 years ago!  Absolutely MIRACULOUS DAY...... !!! And, I ran with the wind in my hair for over an hour ... and I ran barefoot part of the time... ! And I was dressed by design.... for the occasion.... And, I realized it all when I happened to glance in a mirror on my way to run ... catching it at once... black short top, .... dark jeans .. black open canvas shoes... stringless...like his.  Should I be on my skateboard, too?  Though for safety.... I have never run in open places, public forums, or anywhere possible that anyone but the Angels & God could see me.  I do not EVER run outside... and I suppose what I wear is usually quite irrelevant - as no one can see it - but I care usually what I wear for myself. But what a day!  The best decision of my life.... EVER..... to marry my husband.  A decision and a vision actually made by our Father in Heaven who arranges these things.  Yes, it was an arranged marriage... and elopement!  And though I disdain the distance of families who non-comprehend such love, I would have waited  - so that they could have enjoyed their earthly ways and thoughts they had .... should it have made a difference - so sorry to disturb all those who blindly claim us void.  For he and I  both knew we would have always known each other in our Lord - for eternity - and nothing,  and no one, and no circumstance could ever have separated us in Jesus.  And, it came to prove that in our Lord - the essence of who we are as my husband wrote early in our marriage - would never be lost!  A Prophet! How could any of us have known such a divine essence in our love & being!? So, this earthly thing - how fleeting - how passing - when the reality is presently and always there in our Lord.  How long I have waited, how long to wait...   it is not the waiting .... it is not the Time....  the point of our Lord ..... is in the HOW.  "How" did you go... "How" did you get here..... "How" do you get there!  "How" does all this happen.   The "How" ... not the why, not the time, not the what, nor even who.... the "how" is all that matters to God.  In "order" to actually share the same soul... the steps must be very ordered, highly organized, very patterned perfectly by design... in rhythm, in sync...  but there is no rush, no hurry, no urgency.  Time does not matter when sharing the same soul..... or sole !  To the One who dresses me, to the One who designs my steps, my very feet.... touching the same places...... realizing the same connection.... One step One time ....alternating in rhythms only heard and seen in Heaven...Absolutely  Divine!   There is only One! Love His Sonshine !!! 

Ancestors

Our daughter wrote a post today with video from a school demonstration.  She ended up with an extended blog on making all the connections to the school, the historical city... and her connection to all of her ancestors throughout the world.  There really is such a connectiveness and continuity we are all a part of.  I am always so sorry to see any patterns in the Body of Christ .... be disrupted.  I am personally so tired.....    Thank you Jesus for your healing in prayer and in peace always!!  (Her blog post can be viewed at http://ArtsandDisability.Blogspot.com/  )

It is Not A Competition

I finally blogged about this subject -"competition"-on our main "world blog"
ARTS & DISABILITY
http://ArtsandDisability.Blogspot.com/ .

for September 20, 2010
"IT IS NOT A COMPETITION".
http://ArtsandDisability.Blogspot.com/2010/09/it-is-not-competition.html .

Everywhere I go in life I see this kind of mad craziness in lost ambition.... when we all should really be embracing each other in love, kindness, and encouragement.

It is a little out of frustration I wrote it .... but mostly I had to finally take the time and LOVE to do it.... because the deepest part of my intent is to so fully witness and embrace ..... yes, even the worst lost ... but mostly those who are wounded, ill, aging, disabled.... or just so disenfranchised from us all they are terrified, lonely, or in fear. Such could be any of us at any time! Praise God our Lord is our Husband, Father, Provider .... in Grace!!! For what Peace there is in Him is greater than anything else! And, that reality is based in experience ... not delusion..... living it here & now! Praying for all the Earth to embrace the real power in Him!

Love in our Lord,
His Sonshine

New Seasons

The new classes are upon us.... students who cry, parents who care... all this before one can drop. There is always a reason for re- actions. And, the reasons are very, very founded in the misery of mankind..... No one is CRAZY to imagine this "opposite universe".

We found out today a woman in her prime, being from OUR classes - as associates....... we were! .... passing through a freak concrete platform construction accident! Pause, again.... love, consider... all that life is... the meaning of our existence.. and the brevity of each of our lives..............................

....... And, once again to ponder that love & kindness is in the true meaning of life. And that we would hope that our associate was filled with that always... she was so full of life & in her prime with so much to give & so much she gave! She will be so missed by many. And, hopefully, even in our every breath may we devote ourselves to depth & not folly.... as brief as our lives may exist.........

...... In times of these realizations of life & death .... one comes to clarity that mean-spiritedness & bad attitudes are just so not worth it ...... that there is an unkindness that harbours in mankind's soul to purge upon any of us as it spews hatred of life... of unfairness.... yes, even to blame our God, perhaps especially .... though, if questioned few hardly would admit it ..... so bent on being "perfect" without truly acknowledging God - as that is also "dumb" in certain circles... unless one could win some "points" in humanity. Such a terrible societal evil to hypocritically hide & devise schemes to get power, money, self... and "devil care" attitude to virtually everyone...pretending to be all good / all loving / all everything... especially those in the way..... compromising one's own very soul for a price that never holds.

And the Contrast...... seemingly impossible at the same time! I am in adoration of the "Philosophy of Jesus Christ".... seriously, really!,... truthfully!! "Do unto others......" "Love your neighbor as yourself......" "Love & Bless - do good to your enemies....." so that no one can ever realize ?? Who are your enemies...? ... Who are your friends?.. Can ANYONE ever imagine anything greater!!! Yet, there is! It is ABIDING IN HIS WORD! The "Philosophy of Jesus Christ" is ALIVE ... a living being... our Lord.... at His work in us... arresting problems before they occur... intervention... abiding peace and LOVE! It is an Experience of wonder I can really never fully comprehend how & why my Lord filled me with his Love, and turned on every light imaginable!

I pray I may always be the beacon of light & life that I also saw in two others who intrigued me to wonder....... & God may I always ponder those wonders with you! GOD BLESS SHIRLEY & LAURA & MY MOM & AUNT JULIA WHO PRAYED FOR MY SALVATION! & Our Lord who made manifest in my Husband ..... Jesus alive & one with you!

Arts & Disability

Last week began the work of finishing to compile all the work our daughter, my husband, and I.... worked on really for over 25 years! The main BLOG is at http://artsanddisability.blogspot.com/ .

I am quite tired from so much... and all that has to be prepared for classes this fall for all .... It is a relief to connect everything finally.... But, so realizing that God wants especially to connect with each of us as individuals.... as we are each His "Work of Art.." The connectivity of people in building the Tower of Babel resulting in God scattering everyone... and the mixing of the languages .... certainly teaches us that God desires each individual to be one with Him, first! Any connectivity without God .... is simply vain.

May God be Glorified in all ... and may God direct the paths each step .. and of each individual!

In our Lord Jesus Christ Forever!

His Sonshine

In Him We Live & Move & Have Our Being...

https://youtu.be/5NGcU3lkuN4

I am inspired by the Dances of Life.... "X & Y Dancing Chairs in Meiosis" - from our daughter. It is a dance of communication without actual touch. Ironically, the process of meiosis (the cell duplication for the actual sex cells in male and females) .... is a genetic exchange of chromosomes.. voluntarily breaking off pieces, exchanging these parts, and reconnecting / healing over ... ALL accomplished without actual contact between the X & Y cells! Yet, the communication is at another level & dimension that no one really understands, but God. Love is like that... we just benefit and know it is there, it exists.... love & healing are real! God is like that, too... communicating with us on levels we are not aware... yet we feel & experience His Love...!

There is so much more to the inspiration of this dance, and so much more to the process of meiosis.... and forever there is so deep the ways in the mind of God! Who could know so much... what an interesting journey we stay on in these mysteries to explore, alone sometimes, but also connected and touching one another and each other in ways too wonderful to express and with words to deep to utter as we abide in our Lord together as one in Him!

Just Dreaming

Two days, two nights of dreams, dreams, dreams. So virtual tests go... two of those dreams were truly nightmares! Thankful to wake up in "reality" and realize none of it was true! With a few dreams inspirational, a few scene dreams of information fed into my soul like a twitter stream of consciousness.... I am cooked... is the recipe over yet!? Certainly enough ingredients to the endless waste of my body and mind trying to process forks, some knives, a little poison, a lot of bitters, some divine love, with salted water..... oh! and a creepy little cell phone not working most of the time; essentially never working when "timely." Definitely the black "bug" like thing meant to realign my dream world with machine!

How much more vulnerable can one be than in sleep... in dreams... ? Ah... to have the pure sleep of dreamers in love! Now that is divine and worthy of life. Anything else is quite truthfully - depressing! When this life is "rolled up like a scroll - dream" in the mind of God..... I will have to trust that the unreality of life is also a virtual test of truth. I am flunking many of my tests of truth and virtue. Flying high on others. What will be left of me, I am forced to concede, must belong to God.... who records all of this, I am sure, to mercifully reveal what creature we really are.... what we are destined to be.... No failing memory will work when the video plays up again and there I am - big as life! Flailing or Flying! Sometimes I think... life and love is either on or off.... there is nothing in between.... Until reality interrupts the dream. Now what can I make of this that follows?.... a rose it was not:

Sleeping, dreaming, my little white fluff by my head..... both of us under the canopy of a montage picture of love and words kinder than anything in life under these skies.... Flack!... um mm what! Look around, feeling, hearing voices now with a creeping thought manifest in the largeness of two rooms. Nothing - go back to sleep.... Fropel! Cr ac! Again! Creeping and voices accompany a real, thick, spongy, feeling. Turn up the air, go back to sleep... there is nothing there.

Two hours... same thing. What! Three hours... air is good... but I am sweating. Just my imagination... look, my baby in a fur coat sleeps soundly. Go back to sleep... yeah, sure! All is normal on high alert at 4:00 AM!

Clepelleaa... foonge.... Something!! Man, yes... real real voices... real two men- male voices in English... outside! Could not understand them... but this time - people you are real!! I rise up fast, suddenly... intent to catch the two outside my house... I have been on high alert too long to not be lightening quick about it - no sluggard me now! Look! Nothing there but... at that moment... a flying leep-creep of the biggest darn FROG LANDING on my angel picture! And he has the gall to just stare at me with those horrible frog eyes totally ogling me & the white fluff who miraculously is unaware this frog is over her head! She just stares at me standing up... like "Mommy" what are you up again for this time?

Somehow, I manage to awake another in the next room.... "Just get me a pitcher and a magazine from the bathroom!.... And, don't ask any questions!" I holler with the weirdest voice I've ever heard from my throaty memory. A pitcher and a magazine, stumble in sleepily, dreamily, non-questioning as I engage the FROG in a staring contest, and WILL my little white curly baby fluff to just stay, lay, and do not move! Again, another miracle... all six pounds of her just lay there, breathing sweetly, waiting for me to give a command, or get back into bed like a sensible two-legged being. Her adorable eyes, fixed on my face, are as irresistible in this life as the repulsion of the frog eyes bulging with menace and dark incomprehension to my light and love.

With the pitcher and magazine in hands, it is now my final hour .... 5:00 AM! The time, apparently, I must prove myself worthy of something I still cannot possibly fathom or process. It is just raw instinct now. There is a huge bullfrog, knocked over my picture, and sitting atop the face of my one and only love! This is definitely war ... you staring creep from black of night lagoons in rainy torrents!

I pray and take my rhythm leap of faith... the large plastic, white, pitcher squares over the black, mottled bullfrog like a new dimension from space. He is very neatly caught, not fighting much... one wiggly-jump only ... and again his silent pulsing body sits but through the white cloud of his pitcher prison. I neatly slide the magazine under his cushy bottom, lift up together both hands like a concert master ensemble.... then manage through the doors, out the complex, black gates, through the yard... to the awaiting park and large pond ... which no doubt "hatched" the bugger little tadpole into a black-green thingy... somehow finding its way into my home (probably the garage)... then into three different rooms to find my brain-waving dream-active head so he could stare at me while sitting in judgement on who I care to love!

I ponder with great appreciation though, the voices ... of Heaven, no doubt. I do not (in general!) hear voices. Those voices were as real as us, life, the frog, our being, our Lord Jesus Christ! They were definitely outside my house (not in my mind). It was really the only thing to cause me to leap up so quickly... to "catch" the two men conversing in the middle of the night on my lawn! Had I not, at that moment, "heard" the voices SO STRONGLY!!..... the FROG would have then landed no doubt on my face, or at the very least still have landed on the picture just inches from my face. I think that thought would bring on some PTSD!

Mercifully, the FROG is fine in his pond, I am well in my domain, my little white fluff companion - unaffected..... and the sleep-walking deliverer of the pitcher and the magazine assumed it was a dream of sorts... with vague memories upon our real awakening at 7:00 AM!

Sweet Dreams .... Thank you God for spectacular mercy! Sleepy? Anyone?